the results

Unbelievable I finally got the bloody results and because I haven't heard anything
I thought oh well it can't be so bad. Well I received the letter yesterday
and lo and behold I have to go back up to Brisbane for the next stage.
But it get worse I rang up the admin lady to tell her that it's not possible
for me to hold the Friday appointment as I have a party and Jason works etc.
and yes she put my mind at ease by telling me "It must be really bad for them
to get you in so quick so you must come". Isn't that reassuring so I'm preparing
myself for them finding some cancer cells. So yet again we get up at 4am
travel 4 hours and then all my privates are up for display. The only good
thing is that they knock me out this time. Then hopefully they get it all but you know
what is the strange thing is that because of stress I'm feeling quite sick. I awoke at
1am last night and didn't get back to sleep at all. I wish I knew meditation of
something to chill out abit.
You know what sucks the most is that every other area of my life
is booming bloody fantastic. I signed up my first team member, I have
made some awesome friends already, Jason excellent and don't you notice
that in life everything will be going excellent then something shitty will happen.

I have been readying Alison Dubois book (the lady from medium) and I can remember
years ago I read her first book and for about a month before I would constantly
see a shadow or movement and when I would look there would be nothing.
It was black in colour and felt wrong but this is the strange thing I went
down to visit Joe and we were in the laundry changing Coby's nappy
and she said to me "Sometimes when I'm in here I see a black figure or
movement and she said that Kevie had seen it too."
I nearly fell over so as I was saying before I was reading her first book
and in it, it said that if you feel like someone is trying to contact you
just ask for a sign. I was home by myself as Jason was at an Xmas party
and so I put the book down and said out loud (like a psycho) if anyone
is trying to contact me give me a sign.
Next thing the outside light came on and Riley's door began
to rattle. I didn't feel scared I felt reassured.
So why am I writing about this well since I've began to read Alison's
book it's begun again. I was in the kitchen and I saw as clear as day a
white movement. Then after I found out the results and began to stress
and think I'm going to die I felt something touch my left shoulder and
felt comforted in that all will be fine. It was a very heavy, warm feeling.
Yes I sound crazy but that's what happened.
oh well
keep glowing
Kym